I'll take losing a quarter pound at a time, or less. The goal is to lose 2 pounds per week, 10 pounds per month. That's a healthy, sustainable rate.
And I have a timeline goal. Next May, May 2018, is my 40th college class reunion. I graduated from Smith College in 1978 (hard to believe that was pushing 40 years ago...). This massively excessive weight will be gone by then. It's fine to still be working on losing the last few pounds, but I will NOT show up at my 40th Smith College reunion looking like a blimp. Period.
All the psychologists out there will ask "How do you feel about losing the weight?" And they'd want me to get into my complicated history with food, and it has been a love-hate relationship my whole life. I could go on about how my parents rewarded and punished with food, or about how unhappy I was in my first marriage and that caused me to pile it on, or about the self-hatred that being fat my whole life resulted in, but why? My parents stopped doing that 40 years ago, my first husband died in 2005 (and I had a much better second marriage), I'm learning to love myself after all these years, and it's now time for me to get over it.
Weight loss may be about emotion; I'm certainly happy to be losing the weight, and, yes, I'm impatient for all that excess adipose tissue to be gone. But for me, it's a contract. I can keep the contract with myself and lose the effing weight, or not. I've started this blog before and have dropped the ball and not kept the contract, and that fact pisses me off. It's time to keep the contract. So that's what I'm doing.
It's April 1. It's the first of the month, and the first of each month is my assigned picture and measurements day. Here are pictures of my slimming body; you can't see the "slim" yet, but it's coming. I post these horrors so I can later point to them and say, "Look what I did!" I also post them to remind myself NEVER to come back here; 243.25 lb is a better place than was my starting weight of 256, but it's still not a good place.
And here are today's measurements, compared with the starting measurements. I have lost a total of 17.5 inches since I started!
| 14-Mar | 1-Apr | Difference | |
| Weight | 256 | 243.25 | -12.75 |
| Bust | 49.5 | 48.5 | -1 |
| Waist | 51 | 50 | -1 |
| Hips | 48 | 47.5 | -0.5 |
| Upper Arm L | 15 | 14 | -1 |
| Upper Arm R | 15 | 14.5 | -0.5 |
| Mid-Thigh L | 23 | 23.25 | 0.25 |
| Mid-Thigh R | 25 | 24 | -1 |
| Calf L | 16 | 16 | 0 |
| Calf R | 16 | 16 | 0 |
| Inches Lost | -17.5 |
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